broke to richish to broke

in short, i need 20 cents so i can pay the solana blockchain fee to restart with my $3 i have left😭😭 rLqNkSiHWd9uCva2FjMYYtPcCQfX7FXgnnoSceUP7Aj

long story so im not just begging on here for pennies.. in 2021 i started my crypto journey having made 2k then losing it instantly i went even and stopped. then, i logged back onto coinbase, i put some money in and bought a shit ton of solana with what i had which wasnt much. this was around when it was 30$. i then unbelievably perfectly timed the local top and sold around at 200$. at this point i had around 16k in solana. i then cashed this into my bank account and split up the funds into three sectors thinking i was smart. i put around 2k into an etf centered around coinbase and crypto which i later sold for about 4k. i put another 4k into my coinbase wallet where i bought a bunch of shit on base and eth. most things i ended up selling at like -20% except my brett which tripled and aerodome finance which did alright. so like 4k to 5k when i sold. i then also put 4k into phantom in which i eventually put all of this into one memecoin (yes very stupid) this quickly turned into around 20k and the chart looked great.. but at this point i had zero knowledge of memecoins and this ended up going to zero somehow months after the launch. i then reluctantly put another 4k i think into a new phantom wallet as i learned from my mistakes. this stayed around 4k for a long time as i had just researched what i thought were the best coins and bought them but my balance relative to usd didnt really change overall. i then learned more about memecoins and sold all my past convictions to buy the new stuff. i ended up losing 2k pretty slowly until the zoo meta came along. i picked up things like pesto and a few others and made massive gains. 2k became 50k. i obviously didnt sell the top and ended up with around 10k solana in my phantom wallet. wow amazing. i then thought i was dumb asf for not selling the top and kinda started fomoing and gambling into things and rugs and stuff thinking i was just made of money bc i saw 50k that one time i thought anything i would invest in would just turn into money as during the zoo meta that was exactly what happened. i dont think a single thing i invested in went down until afterwards. so, post zoo meta post gambling my phantom wallet was depleted badly. but i had all this new knowledge of memecoins. i wanted to buy a lot of sigma when it was at 6M but didnt have the funds anymore, retardio, etc all those coins that were talked about like crazy that actually ended up performing i knew about but didnt buy. so i did what i said i would never do which was dip into my other investments (the etf and base+eth portfolio from earlier). i sold these one by one for solana and put it into my phantom. in my head i didnt want to do this so i only liquidated on portfolio at a time and thought i would just pickup the next 20x then move the funds back and all that good stuff. so, to do that i just kept aping into newer coins. there was literally nothing wrong with this looking back on it, if i hadnt sold a few coins i wouldve at one point had over 1 million in my phantom, yes i am being fr. but i was going through a rough time and i was pretty anxious and i knew wayyyy too much about memecoins. so instead of holding coins that went down a bit i would swap them at a loss for coins i knew would go up. and instead of taking profits i would just continue to do this like an idiot. i think i was deadass a zombie during this month i was not doing well mentally. so to make this story shorter, i full aped both of my portfolios into memecoins and then all of my real money as well which wasnt much bc almost all my money was in crypto and made off of crypto, my past and current jobs just paid the bills. after i lost it all i realized i might be screwed. so i took a step back and tried to devise an actual plan like i usually would do with my investing which has worked for me. i then put like 200$ i think into my phantom or more idk. i followed through and was disciplined and got back up to like 3k so i was like alr.. last time i was around here this became 50k. so i think i lost it mentally again and aped a bit lost a bit and started selling at losses again bc now i didnt have the other two portfolios to rely on making my money, i only had this one. i think another part of the issue was in my head i knew i could be making smarter plays and do better. that 3k went to like 1k. i split most of this into some longer term plays and then used the rest on short term plays. believe it or not i actually hit a 100x and didnt sell early and sold at the 100x. my initial was .01 solana smh. i think this messed me up too. bc in my head i couldve had millions at this point and plus. and with millions i could buy a good chunk of some blue chip coins to be safer investments like the two boring portfolios i liquidated earlier for memes. so i ended up going back to my bad habits again not doing well mentally since i cant really talk to anyone about this which is why im yapping here instead. at this point i had like 300$ left and i tried to get myself back in shape which worked for a bit. but i got greedy a few times which cost me. ie i would hit a 3x and not sell my initials – i would gamble again. idek why i would do this bc i dont think im addicted to gambling or anything. i actually used to gamble a few years ago and turned 200 i into 2k in a month bc i did extensive research. this took too much time to do eventually which was the reason i stopped. anyways, now i am back broke at the worst time to be bc its like prime bullrun rn and somehow i lost money, but made money during what everyone said was the bear market. idk. end all, i need to get myself back together to take advantage of this opportunity but im out of funds and i use my paycheck to pay my bills. i had about 10$ left in a wallet i had made post 50k loss to start fresh but i put it all into one coin and forgot to leave enough for the blockchain fee. i already scraped my old wallets clean and have about 10$ in a trash eth coin and 5$ in base that i cant move into solana bc i cant pay the 20$ eth fee to do that bs. so im stuck now with 3$ in this wallet. im hoping someone here can feel this and spare 20 cents. ik i messed up before but my back is against the wall as this is my last and i will not gamble it again. i will split into a few positions holding at least 25% of my wallet in solana, and take profits off of coins. and i will not be selling any coins at a loss greater than 5%. i will just have to wait it out this time. any advice from those in the space would be greatly appreciated as well as im tryna have a better outlook even though i just tanked my investments. end story, i am determined to slowly but surely take this 3$ as far as i can WITHOUT full porting and gambling bc i cannot. i have the knowledge to succeed and i will succeed at all costs. i learned a very expensive lesson on discipline and will not be making those same mistakes again thanks